One Body Too Many
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I feel as though my life has become so meaningless. I have become what I told myself I would never be. I had such high hopes for myself. I feel like giving up on life. I sometimes feel as though the only thing I have to live for is hope. Hope that I'll become something more, hope that I'll actually do something with my pathetic life.
I have trouble saying no. I have trouble putting my foot down. I have trouble opening up to people. Especially as of late. I feel like my social abilities are diminishing. I feel much more shy lately. I feel more depressed.
I get pissed off because no matter how well a person thinks that they know me... truth be told they don't. They probably never will. I presume that this is a good thing seeing as how I'm such an unfortunate person to meet.
Honestly, sometimes I cannot imagine being alive in the future. I don't want to keep living this way. I don't want to keep feeling this shitty about myself. I don't want to regret. I have so many regrets already. Sometimes I think that dying would be better than seeing what I'm going to become. I feel like it's too late for me to be something great. I'm almost twenty-years-old. I haven't done shit with my life since high school.
Whatever. Fuck life. I have the flu and am going to sleep.
I have trouble saying no. I have trouble putting my foot down. I have trouble opening up to people. Especially as of late. I feel like my social abilities are diminishing. I feel much more shy lately. I feel more depressed.
I get pissed off because no matter how well a person thinks that they know me... truth be told they don't. They probably never will. I presume that this is a good thing seeing as how I'm such an unfortunate person to meet.
Honestly, sometimes I cannot imagine being alive in the future. I don't want to keep living this way. I don't want to keep feeling this shitty about myself. I don't want to regret. I have so many regrets already. Sometimes I think that dying would be better than seeing what I'm going to become. I feel like it's too late for me to be something great. I'm almost twenty-years-old. I haven't done shit with my life since high school.
Whatever. Fuck life. I have the flu and am going to sleep.
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