To the sunrise we emerge.
8:46 AM Posted In death , happiness , love , sadness Edit This 1 Comment »
I think too much. Not only do I think too much, but I scare myself too much as well. I am such a disturbed human being, and nobody sees it but me. Everything seems so surreal as of late. I feel like something huge is going to happen. I can't tell if it's bad or good... but something's definitely about to happen.
I am starting to think about death more and more often. I don't see where my life is going. I don't know who I am. I want George to love me. But I am so afraid of him seeing the real Erika. Don't get me wrong, I'm not fake around him by any means. But I am definitely masking numerous things, thoughts, etc. We make such an amazing, powerful couple. I see so much in him, and I don't want it to end. I hope he feels the same way.
Ugh. Fuck my mother fucking life. It's not so much that I want to die. It's more like I just want to be happy. But happiness seems so far away right now. I just hope it's worth waiting for.
I am starting to think about death more and more often. I don't see where my life is going. I don't know who I am. I want George to love me. But I am so afraid of him seeing the real Erika. Don't get me wrong, I'm not fake around him by any means. But I am definitely masking numerous things, thoughts, etc. We make such an amazing, powerful couple. I see so much in him, and I don't want it to end. I hope he feels the same way.
Ugh. Fuck my mother fucking life. It's not so much that I want to die. It's more like I just want to be happy. But happiness seems so far away right now. I just hope it's worth waiting for.
